Really Really Real

Jun 15

She paints naked bodies on an unvacuumed floor
I try to make ends meet but I dont think I can anymore
I’m losing sleep, and the objects I thought I could keep
I can’t see the time that I waste
because the debts paid to my power are always late 
I don’t think I need to live here anyway. 


Jun 6

pt.1

You have the guise of an artist
and I applaud your lack of self esteem
We’ll get out of this mess
With the inclinations that once left me
The rampant oscillating feelings that
peck at the heads of the glorious mid-twenties pallor
Leave me imbued to careen towards the lane
"Our lives are just minutes away"
I know you’re scared, but it’s time 
to separate trepidation from the mind
to no longer defile or decry,
and I promise the car will start.
The highway whistles as the tires grip onto the pavement
And why we left this life behind will go on to thrive transparent.
 


Jun 5

Well pack your bags,
We’ll head out where,
diabetes is a myth
Forget about your blood pressure
Nacho flavored bubble mint!

You can have it supersized,
Obesity the whitest lie,
Want a scoop of cooked ground beef?
Grab my hand and follow me!

Chocolate covered peanut cups,
Root beer mixed with 7-up,
Give me pizza hold the crust,
My arteries will turn to dust. 

We’ll vote for Ben and Jerry
And aunt Jemima will drive us home
When we’re too sugared out to drive
Forget the kidney stones.

Gummi worms and waffle fries
A casket with a caramel line,
We’ll all grow round before we die
Now dig in to this apple pie! 


I have never ever been a happy camper
and sometimes I think my life’s a mess
I never thought I could hold up a lover
and I never thought of happiness
But time rolled on and I sang out loud
and I picked you out from the smelly crowd
and you asked me my name
and bought me a PBR
A PBR, A PBR
Now 2 dollars isnt much of a friendly gesture
and a kiss on the cheek will take a couple months
But I knew right away I had to sever
The lack of confidence that seems to run
through my bloodline and past my toes
and in my gut and in my clothes
Nothing seemed to matter when
you bought me a PBR
A PBR, A PBR 
Here we are now living in a trailer
We have 3 dogs and a couple kids
We live on foodstamps and welfare
and cartons of cigarettes
The pitstains in my t shirt
Make out the shape of a heart
and life goes on and doesnt matter
because you bought me a PBR
A PBR, A PBR 


Jun 2

boyfriend of the year

you are the boyfriend of the year
you remember when I have to go to work
and sometimes, you treat me, like a jerk
(what? no I dont)
(yeah I know, just kidding dude.) 
you are the boyfriend of the year
you bring me medicine when I am sick,
and sometimes, you treat me, like a dick
(what the fuck?)
(I don’t know, it rhymes.)
(ugh)
you are the boyfriend of the year
you kiss me when I say that I love you
and you suck, at everything, that you do.
(really?) 


May 31

troubled hearts
are magnetized
and when they intertwine
they see the light
and it’s time
to be real nice
to go outside
and no longer hide
and we could be,
as friendly as enemies, can be
and we wont need,
to be nasty when unnecessary
troubled minds
are hypnotized
and when they follow orders
it blackens eyes
we wont cry 
we wont sigh
and when we rest in peace
it’ll be a waste of time 


Apr 29
Went to Target the other day with my girlfriend, there was a mother and a little girl in the shopping cart in front of us in the check-out line.  The little girl kept saying “No, I want the circle gum” I immediately muttered “Bubble Tape.” and my girlfriend asked the little girl “Bubble Tape?”  She nodded yes, I ran out of line, checked all the impulse buys in each aisle, then ran to the candy section.  I overheard my girlfriend say “He’s very persistent.”  Found the bubble tape, and ran back to the cart, almost knocking over other shoppers.  I gave the little girl her Bubble Tape.  I guess the mother was asking if I was already a father, my girlfriend said back “not yet.” and the mother told her that I am going to be a great father.  My girlfriend keeps reminding me of that since, I think it’s definitely time to leave the “party til you die/live for the bar” scene and start growing up.

Went to Target the other day with my girlfriend, there was a mother and a little girl in the shopping cart in front of us in the check-out line.  The little girl kept saying “No, I want the circle gum” I immediately muttered “Bubble Tape.” and my girlfriend asked the little girl “Bubble Tape?”  She nodded yes, I ran out of line, checked all the impulse buys in each aisle, then ran to the candy section.  I overheard my girlfriend say “He’s very persistent.”  Found the bubble tape, and ran back to the cart, almost knocking over other shoppers.  I gave the little girl her Bubble Tape.  I guess the mother was asking if I was already a father, my girlfriend said back “not yet.” and the mother told her that I am going to be a great father.  My girlfriend keeps reminding me of that since, I think it’s definitely time to leave the “party til you die/live for the bar” scene and start growing up.


Apr 27

Apr 26

We could live there together, or I’ll live alone less happy. But I’ll live, unfortunately


Apr 17

Song #1

My heart beats: Hot sauce, caffeine, and cigarettes
My mouth catches sores from lover’s spit.
If I only knew when I graduated,
I’d not be 25 in my parent’s basement.
I’d feel bad for those doing worse than me
I’d be tipping well and recycling
The world could be a better place,
If I gave up my friends at a rapid pace.

You can do a lot more than what you’re doing,
There’s a big world, with a lot of new friends,
You can do a lot more than what you’re doing,
There’s a big world, with a lot of new friends, 

I have an ulcer, it’s the size of a golf ball,
I’ll burn it off with alcohol,
but instead of a cure, it just re-opens,
and reminds me that I really need to quit.
I’ll continue to smoke until I can’t speak
and tell the world what I really think
I’ll stand on a soapbox when I’m done, (and scream)
"I’ll find you bastards, you better run!"

And you can do a lot more than what you’re doing,
There’s a big world, with a lot of new friends,
that won’t remind you that you are pathetic,
a fresh new life, hope you can respect it. 


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